Their Breakup, Familiar

I really believe the girl knew and heard rumors about the guy’s sexuality way before he started courting her. But if the girl was blinded by his cute smiles, his sweet lines and his handsome face, chances are she took the risk hoping that she can change him.

Around 10 years ago, I met a guy who I thought was a “real” guy. He acted sweet, he looked and smelled nice and I really thought that he was into to me. Then one incident happened, we played volleyball.

They say you will see the real character of a person when he or she is pressured. And I saw his real character while playing. Hints of him being gay or “bakla” came flooding to me already. But I stopped myself from thinking that. Sabi ko pa nga “Marami naman tunay na lalaki na magaling mag-volleyball ha”! I remember telling my HS friend about this and I even told her that maybe he needs me para maging tunay na lalaki sha.

He still continued being sweet and nice. We were holding hands na pero hindi kame. He will bring my stuff and he will bring me home and he even introduced me to his mom.

I started to fall for him even though I know at the back of my mind that there was something wrong because he never said he wanted me as a girlfriend. But even if I knew and there were obvious hints that he was bakla, I still liked him and if that moment he said he loved and he liked me, I will instantly say yes and be his girlfriend.

I really think that this was what the girl was thinking when she entertained the guy. She didn’t care about what others said and I think she also didn’t care of some stuff she saw. I bet you she even thought that she can change him. But it didn’t work out.

I feel sad for her. But at least she now know that people cannot change. It’s a lesson learned on her side. For the guy, shame on you for leading her on! If you are not gay why not tell everybody the reason why you 2 broke up. Why not tell people that they grew apart and the he doesn’t love her just like before. That’s so easy! But since he’s hiding his sexuality, it became hard.

Healthy Mind at Work

I got this email from our company HR and it kinda sank into me. I admire Singapore for being so helpful to their people and the people living here. For instance, the Health Promotion Board opened their helplines for employees who are having trouble or problems in their workplace. Mind you, this a free counseling session to anyone who feels they need someone to talk pertaining to their daily work-life challenge. This just shows that they value worker and people who strive hard to earn a living.

We lack these types of incentives in the Philippines. Our government should also think of employee welfare and psychological health in time like this. Kudos to Singapore for having such idea to help employees in need!

Joy in My Heart

The word JOY has been associated to a lot of things in countless occasions. One major LSS that I have now when I read the word Joy is the commercial of Micheal V about a dish washing liquid where he sings “J-O-Y, joy in our hearts. Deep, deep down in our hearts!”. Even if I can still vividly see in my head Micheal V’s OA expression in this commercial, his song really does mean a lot to me now.

Recently, I’ve been very sad and down because of all the problems that we are facing. There are times, during the course of my sadness, that I want to give up already and just leave everything and go somewhere or go back to the Philippines. Good thing my husband Doms is always with me to guide me. Knowing that he is such a positive person and that he sees things differently and positively fills my heart with joy. What will I do without him? He explains things to me so that I can see and understand the lighter side of worst scenarios. Thinking of Doms and knowing that he is my husband and he is with me forever makes me want to sing Micheal V’s song and dance with it as well.

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Another thing that makes me want to sing and shout for joy is the fact that at least there is progress in the things that we are waiting for. We just learned that everything is OK and normal with Doms. So at least, there’s a check mark on one of things that I’ve been praying for. Also, the bank seems to be moving along because we now know the “amount” that we have been waiting for. These things makes me smile because I know that God is listening to our prayers. It’s just a matter of waiting patiently for the rest of the things that we have been praying for.

With the mentioned progress above, I know that my prayers are going somewhere and I have to continue praying.

Thank you Lord for making me feel joyous. Trusting you made my life easier.