We are looking for a place to buy and we found these townhouses in our neighborhood. I really hope and pray that this is the one for us already! I’m excited!
Category Archives: Feelings
The Month That Passed
My last post was a month ago already. Time really flies when your busy working and living. Whew!
Well, I have good news! I was promoted to Senior Technical Writer during our last performance appraisal. It was something I really didn’t expect because I didn’t know I was being eyed to be promoted.
It was a good news for us because it will be very useful to our future plans. So, as prize for my promotion, I bought a Macbook Pro!
My 13″ Macbook Pro. It’s pimped out now because I bought a shell case for it and a pink keyboard protector.
It was really a dream come true! I’ve been wanting to have my own Macbook Pro ever since I started working here in Singapore. There were times when I was supposed to buy it already but I change my ind because it’s quite expensive so I just let it pass. But my promotion made a justifiable reason to buy it.
Another good news is that Baby Pork and I are already in our 30th week! !10 more weeks to go Baby and Mommy and Daddy will see you already!
I took a picture of my bulging belly and this was how it looked like:
Mommy Pork @ 30 Weeks
Is it too big for my gestational stage? I hope not! A lot of people still can’t believe that I’m on my 7th month already. Anyway, just last night, Doms told me the name of our Baby.
Drake Anthony T. Valentin
I love it! We’re so excited to see our Baby already. This Saturday I have my OGTT Glucose tolerance test and I really hope that my results will turn out to be OK.
Boring-Ness
I’m really bored right now. The application that I’ve been waiting to be installed for me to continue with work is not working as it should be.
So, what will I do while I’m waiting?
BLOG!
I’ve been meaning to buy a web hosting service for my blog so I can add plugins, nuff nang and other stuff for my blog so I can earn from this. But I don’t know how to make my blog interesting so people will actually visit it.
I thought of venturing in concert photography but I need gears (lens) for my camera so I can have a good photo. If I focus on food and travel, I might not be able to update my blog always because I don’t travel that much.
So, what to do leh?
Again Feeling Down and Gloomy
It’s 5 days before Christmas and instead of being excited with the holiday season, I am now reflecting and mopping on what happened to me in the past year.
I feel sad.
I feel down.
I feel depressed.
I actually don’t know what the reason is. Sometimes, I think I never did anything to mark on other people’s lives. I never tried to make myself known or matter. I just allowed the year to pass by without me enjoying it.
Was I too selfish?
Was I too self centered?
Was I too preoccupied with what I want instead of what really matters?
I am again thinking. And I hate it. I never really had to the to relax my mind. The whole year I I wasted a whole bucket of brain cells just about thinking of what will happened next. I worry a lot and even up to this point, when I’m writing this entry, I’m still worrying about what I did this morning to one of my colleagues.
I can’t stop thinking.
I can’t stop analyzing.
I can’t stop worrying.
#IHATEIT
The other day I was feeling good and I believed that I have an effect on others I just don’t know about. I was brought up that way. Believing that I am somebody and believing that I can be whoever I want. But I am not somebody and I am not who I want to be.
I want to be happy.
I want to be free.
I want to fly.
But I can’t. I need to slowly assess myself and pick up the pieces and try to rebuild myself again for 2012. I’ve been through a roller coaster of emotions and I need a break from it.
Planning Up for the 2012 Holidays
I’m not feeling very well today. I just realized 2011 is ending soon and the I haven’t accomplished much. Well, I started the year right because Doms and I got married. It was the happiest day of my life! We were able to go to Hong Kong and Macau for our honeymoon and we enjoyed it very much.
Then, Holy Week came and we were able to go back to Manila to fulfill Doms’ wish of spending Holy Week in Manila. Then came our Sydney Trip which was the highlight of our year. We really wanted to go there and we were given a chance.
The other happenings were just a blur. We were able to transfer to a new place etc. But the things that I wanted to happen, or the things that matter, never happened.
Which makes me sad.
Now, looking at the holidays for 2012 make me fear the coming 2012. Not because the Mayan calendar will end and the earth will supposedly self destruct, but because I’m fearing 2012 will just be same as 2011.
2012 Philippine Holidays Image Taken from the Internet
2012 Singapore Holidays Image Taken from the Internet
I know I should be positive for the coming year. I know I need to believe that 2012 is our year, but I need time to believe. In times like this, believing is hard for me since the frustrations and hurt that I felt in 2011 are still within me. And the fear of feeling that frustration and hurt makes me paranoid and sad and I feel like giving up.
I really hope that one of these days, my perspective will change and I will be excited for the year to come.
Image Taken from the Internet
