Category Archives: Feelings

Boring-Ness

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I’m really bored right now. The application that I’ve been waiting to be installed for me to continue with work is not working as it should be.

So, what will I do while I’m waiting?

BLOG!

I’ve been meaning to buy a web hosting service for my blog so I can add plugins, nuff nang and other stuff for my blog so I can earn from this. But I don’t know how to make my blog interesting so people will actually visit it.

I thought of venturing in concert photography but I need gears (lens) for my camera so I can have a good photo. If I focus on food and travel, I might not be able to update my blog always because I don’t travel that much.

So, what to do leh?

Again Feeling Down and Gloomy

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It’s 5 days before Christmas and instead of being excited with the holiday season, I am now reflecting and mopping on what happened to me in the past year.

I feel sad.

I feel down.

I feel depressed.

I actually don’t know what the reason is. Sometimes, I think I never did anything to mark on other people’s lives. I never tried to make myself known or matter. I just allowed the year to pass by without me enjoying it.

Was I too selfish?

Was I too self centered?

Was I too preoccupied with what I want instead of what really matters?

I am again thinking. And I hate it. I never really had to the to relax my mind. The whole year I I wasted a whole bucket of brain cells just about thinking of what will happened next. I worry a lot and even up to this point, when I’m writing this entry, I’m still worrying about what I did this morning to one of my colleagues.

I can’t stop thinking.

I can’t stop analyzing.

I can’t stop worrying.

#IHATEIT

The other day I was feeling good and I believed that I have an effect on others I just don’t know about. I was brought up that way. Believing that I am somebody and believing that I can be whoever I want. But I am not somebody and I am not who I want to be.

I want to be happy.

I want to be free.

I want to fly.

But I can’t. I need to slowly assess myself and pick up the pieces and try to rebuild myself again for 2012. I’ve been through a roller coaster of emotions and I need a break from it.

 

Planning Up for the 2012 Holidays

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I’m not feeling very well today. I just realized 2011 is ending soon and the I haven’t accomplished much. Well, I started the year right because Doms and I got married. It was the happiest day of my life!  We were able to go to Hong Kong and Macau for our honeymoon and we enjoyed it very much.

Then, Holy Week came and we were able to go back to Manila to fulfill Doms’ wish of spending Holy Week in Manila. Then came our Sydney Trip which was the highlight of our year. We really wanted to go there and we were given a chance.

The other happenings were just a blur. We were able to transfer to a new place etc. But the things that I wanted to happen, or the things that matter, never happened.

Which makes me sad.

Now, looking at the holidays for 2012 make me fear the coming 2012. Not because the Mayan calendar will end and the earth will supposedly self destruct, but because I’m fearing 2012 will just be same as 2011.

2012 Philippine Holidays Image Taken from the Internet

2012 Singapore Holidays Image Taken from the Internet

I know I should be positive for the coming year. I know I need to believe that 2012 is our year, but I need time to believe. In times like this, believing is hard for me since the frustrations and hurt that I felt in 2011 are still within me. And the fear of feeling that frustration and hurt makes me paranoid and sad and I feel like giving up.

I really hope that one of these days, my perspective will change and I will be excited for the year to come.

Image Taken from the Internet

 

Oh When, Oh When?

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When I first heard about the Pottermore Beta testing, immediately searched for it only to find out that it closed already. I can’t believe it closed on me?!?! So, I’ve been checking and checking the Pottermore website for it’s general opening to the public.

I searched for some information or hints on it’s launching and the closest date that I got was early 2012.

“Pottermore registration was planned to open to the general public at the end of October 2011. However, on 28 October 2011, the Beta period was extended, and no date has been announced for general registration to open.

Ebooks and audio books will be available in the Pottermore Store sometime in 2012.”

I don’t know if I can still contain myself! I really hope it does come out already so I can experience the sorting and the other games and potion making activities of the site.

All Our Bags Are Packed…

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Yes, we’re moving to a new home. But all the memories and the friends we made in our old home will all be cherished!

I’m excited at the same time tensed because moving to a new place entails adjusting to the surroundings and the people we are going to live with. I really hope that everything goes well.

Our new place is located near my office now. At least the stress of my travel time will be lessened from 1 hour 30 minutes to 20 minutes. It was really difficult for us to find the right place but thank God, we were able to get one.