I’m not feeling very well today. I just realized 2011 is ending soon and the I haven’t accomplished much. Well, I started the year right because Doms and I got married. It was the happiest day of my life! We were able to go to Hong Kong and Macau for our honeymoon and we enjoyed it very much.
Then, Holy Week came and we were able to go back to Manila to fulfill Doms’ wish of spending Holy Week in Manila. Then came our Sydney Trip which was the highlight of our year. We really wanted to go there and we were given a chance.
The other happenings were just a blur. We were able to transfer to a new place etc. But the things that I wanted to happen, or the things that matter, never happened.
Which makes me sad.
Now, looking at the holidays for 2012 make me fear the coming 2012. Not because the Mayan calendar will end and the earth will supposedly self destruct, but because I’m fearing 2012 will just be same as 2011.

2012 Philippine Holidays Image Taken from the Internet

2012 Singapore Holidays Image Taken from the Internet
I know I should be positive for the coming year. I know I need to believe that 2012 is our year, but I need time to believe. In times like this, believing is hard for me since the frustrations and hurt that I felt in 2011 are still within me. And the fear of feeling that frustration and hurt makes me paranoid and sad and I feel like giving up.
I really hope that one of these days, my perspective will change and I will be excited for the year to come.

Image Taken from the Internet